I

I am a speck in this universe,
living my life the best I can.
friction and confrontation I avoid,
hoping to make it null and void.
people and places are dear to me,
more than any thing money can buy,
my personality I choose to enhance,
by always offering everybody,a second chance.
one thing that I really take care,
is to be always just and fair.
My greatest fear I would admit,
is causing pain and disappointment, even a bit.
I have my vices to conquer but,
none, I hope, that causes others regret.
I try to live by a code, though,
passing time causes it to erode,
evolving with times to fit my abode.
Lots of things I'd like to change,
with some I succeed, some remain.
Even though I keep an open mind,
people sometimes are hard to understand.
Free of malice and straight of word,
my temper lost is a scene to behold.
one thing that I am proud of is,
truth, I never shy away from!

Search for meaning

What role does chance play in our life?
Things that happen and things that we do,
Are we in control or do we just play it out..
Are things preordained by fate,a grand plan
is there?,with each one of us playing a part
Are we the puppet or the puppet master?

What I pray, do tell!, of free will then ?
two roads in front of me, what do i take?
wherefore doth my destiny lie?
Choose do I or is the choice already made?
Why this dilemma am I faced by..
wherein both action and inaction lead me awry!

what am I? Why am I? How am I ? Who am I?
looking inside of me to find the answers
gets me more lost than I was ever before!
Duty, honour, responsibility,
karma, Dharma, Adharma
words meant to throw light but darken..
and confound rather than explicate.

How?

Even while dying every second,
How do I feel so alive ?
living in two dimensions of time,
one that drags on and on...
And the other that speeds on,
quicker than you can say, hold on.
Learning new meanings of words everyday,
of beauty, wonder, awe, joy, dream,
of courage, love, life, future,hope..
and of fact, reality, fate, futility, misery
of despair, melancholy and nothingness..
of fear and pain, and of loss and gain..
How is it that I feel like I am
in heaven and hell at the same time!

Surrender!

love is a state of no ego, no I..
A temporary insanity it is,
rendering a state of total surrender.

Dualism

You are my strength and you are my weakness!
You bring meaning to my life, yet throw it into disarray.
You are the order and the chaos.
You are the light and the darkness!
You are the one hope to quench my thirst..
Are u the spring I'm looking for or just a mirage..
You are my sunshine and the storm that hit me
You are my song and my silence
You are my sweet ecstasy and my desolation
You are my cure and my affliction

Will you be my salvation or condemn me to damnation?